Sad Girls Smoke A Lot 2

It’s gotten so old, the whole cycle of drugs and violence, that even I get bored with it.

To The Moon and NEVER Back

Freedom from addiction and domestic violence brings peace, and surprisingly, despair.

10 Ways To Make Amends in Addiction Recovery

Well, look at you, Recovery Warrior! Finally, after years of failed attempts to quit and giving yourself excuses to keep using, you did it! You have quit your drug of choice and gone through the horrible withdraws. You have fought through the constant urges and you believe 110% you are on the right path in…

Bar Thoughts 2

Sitting at the bar, trying to not think of Lucifer or drugs. Trying not to think about relapsing 9 days ago. Not on my drug of choice, but still a bad one. Trying not to think about the fact that I’m pretty sure the two guys I was with fucked me after I blacked out…

Bar Thoughts

Sitting at the bar, thinking about how to get out of this and not relapse at the same time.  He told me he would beat my ass if I didn’t shut up yesterday. I had to shut up so he wouldn’t hit me with my kids home. He’s never don’t anything like that when the…

You don’t have to run faster than the bear…

My work has started to ask me about the bruises again. Though we have been back together for more than 6 months, I just recently told my work that Lucifer and I were trying to work things out. Since the last time I was with Lucifer, I was coming in to work with different bruises…