5 Things I Miss About Being a Crystal Meth Addict (and 11 Things I Don’t)

Memories of Meth – letting my mind wander down the rabbit hole…


Of Ice and a Woman (part 2): Sobriety Looks Good on You, Girl!!

If God had said to me, before all this began, “You can save your friend, but it will cost you everything dear in your life”, would I have taken the challenge?

Bar Thoughts

Sitting at the bar, thinking about how to get out of this and not relapse at the same time.  He told me he would beat my ass if I didn’t shut up yesterday. I had to shut up so he wouldn’t hit me with my kids home. He’s never don’t anything like that when the…

You don’t have to run faster than the bear…

My work has started to ask me about the bruises again. Though we have been back together for more than 6 months, I just recently told my work that Lucifer and I were trying to work things out. Since the last time I was with Lucifer, I was coming in to work with different bruises…

All She Wants To Do Is RELAPSE

Some days, like this one, all I want to do is relapse. You read that right, I WANT to relapse. If you’re fresh in your recovery, you may want to skip over this particular blog post. If you’ve been in recovery for some time, maybe you can comment with some advice for me right now….

The Opposite of Addiction is Connection

My dad thought I was going through what all young people go through. He had done his experimenting and figured I was just doing mine a little later in life than he did since I had kids so young. He never developed any kind of addiction, so why would I?

The Annual Metamorphosis

It’s something about the Spring, I think. Lucifer only beats me when it’s beautiful outside…

Sad Girls Smoke A Lot 

“Things were perfect now, aside from the fact that I was a functioning drug addict…”