Memories of Meth – letting my mind wander down the rabbit hole…
If God had said to me, before all this began, “You can save your friend, but it will cost you everything dear in your life”, would I have taken the challenge?
Sitting at the bar, thinking about how to get out of this and not relapse at the same time. He told me he would beat my ass if I didn’t shut up yesterday. I had to shut up so he wouldn’t hit me with my kids home. He’s never don’t anything like that when the…
My work has started to ask me about the bruises again. Though we have been back together for more than 6 months, I just recently told my work that Lucifer and I were trying to work things out. Since the last time I was with Lucifer, I was coming in to work with different bruises…
“What is that?”, I ask her.
“It’s ice,” she responds.
Like a reflex, I ask. “Can I try some?”
Some days, like this one, all I want to do is relapse. You read that right, I WANT to relapse. If you’re fresh in your recovery, you may want to skip over this particular blog post. If you’ve been in recovery for some time, maybe you can comment with some advice for me right now….
Will a Batterer Intervention & Prevention Program help my abuser stop abusing me? This series will track the progress (or lack there of) of an abusive man getting help from the perspective of the battered woman.
My dad thought I was going through what all young people go through. He had done his experimenting and figured I was just doing mine a little later in life than he did since I had kids so young. He never developed any kind of addiction, so why would I?
“Your best days are ahead of you. The movie starts when the guy gets sober and puts his life back together; it doesn’t end there.” – Bucky Sinister
It’s something about the Spring, I think. Lucifer only beats me when it’s beautiful outside…
For me, quitting meth was the beginning of a journey or a trial. A marathon that I am still in now and don’t expect to be out of any time soon
“Things were perfect now, aside from the fact that I was a functioning drug addict…”